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Monday, October 31, 2005

Old Letters

I have searched high and low, left and right, and even tried to replay and fast forward but I still couldn't find it. I remember that I have stored it in a straw woven bag. Months ago, I sneaked out of my room, slithered into the bag , salivating, like my baby hungry for candies, trying to "korek" the pile of letters that I kept like treasure. No, unfortunately , they are not love letters from my ex husband. Surprisingly, they are letters which a boy wrote to me when we were studying. Err... when I was 15. Yes, 15 years old...puppy love.

I wonder why I kept his letters. We did not even date each other. We were just fond of each other. The letters were so sweet and innocent. Everything was so simple, sweet and innocent. And the beauty of reading a handwritten letter is in the handwriting. So so sweet that you can float while reading them. Brings a smile whenever I read them. He would tell me how life was in UK ( he was sent to the boarding school at the age of 14), his exams, his daily life and etc and etc...Just a few minutes in the time machine gives a "lift me up" feel. Better than tiramisu anytime !

From receiving the letters, opening the envelope and just indulging in the contents sent exciting shivers (er, not orgasm la, ok). I do not know the exact word to explain my feeling but it was so, so........sweet I suppose.

Months ago, I performed the yearly ritual. Wanted to just read the letters and forget about the daily madness. They were just not there anymore. Not in the bag. Not in the mooncake tin. Not in the biscuit tin. The search began but to no avail. Devastated ! Very devastated !

What is gone is gone. I still longed for the letters but I just have to come into terms with the loss. Sigh ! But, but, I can still remember vaguely and I shall keep these sweet little memories deeply engraved in my hard disk. Those are all I have left and I shall keep them as sweet memories from my early teenage years.

13 Comments:

  • At 1:57 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Mmmmm.... sweet memories eh.

    wah! search high and low. got found any hidden treasure or not.. like porn mags or cd... lol.

     
  • At 2:08 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    ops.. it's me, dun b scared ar... use pda to surf, got free wireless. having lunch now.

    this stupid ie don't let me sign in

    - pokca

     
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    pda?
    u action laa
    u act "lebih" issit?
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    no lar... it's a company property lar... I pinjam oni

     
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